So today is my second day back at work after a year away. I cancelled my first day back on Monday as Sophia's temperature was sky high and she spent the day cuddled and sleeping in my arms, wearing only her nappy to try and stay cooler as she fought a raging fever. Stu looked after her on Tuesday and I had her again on Wednesday (my day not at work). It is....difficult...to be back. My childminder texted today to say that Sophia took 5 steps. She is still learning how to walk and it's hard knowing that I am missing these milestones. Work is so full on and highly stressful what with trying to catch up on all the new systems and processes. I can't say I am enjoying it. It's great to see the people though, they were always good to work with. It's going to take a long time to settle back in to this though. My heart is heavy at the moment.